the first news

Assalamualaikum.

Hi baby, now mummy is in 17 weeks of pregnancy and mummy cant wait for the latest addition in our family of two (mummy and your walid).. >.<

 

Mummy thinks the first time mummy had a hunch that mummy was carrying you in my stomach is on the first 2 weeks itself, when your walid hit a bumper on the road and I feels funny inside my stomach. A sudden feel to protect whatever inside it, without knowing what it really was. But mummy didn't tell anyone of course, especially to your anxious walid. Like, who would have known their pregnancy on the first few week, right? Instead, I just told him to slow down the motorcycle without directly telling him anything.

 

Come the forth weeks, your walid and I went for one marathon event. Well baby, you should have known by now that your mummy is an adrenaline seeker and likes to think big. This is the first time mummy joined a marathon event. Mummy knows by now, I am few days late for my menstrual circle.

Your walid run fast. I don't want to be left far, so I just keep my phase and stop for a second or two to control my breathing. As my leg is moving and my mind is pushing me not to quit, my heart is racing, "what if I really got pregnant? would this running effect my baby?" .. By now, my stomach feel so much pain. like a period pain. So I just think that maybe this is just a PMS thingy. But deep down, I pray hard "Ya Allah, if you have choose me to carry a baby, please make it safe. Please make it as tough as the mother or even tougher. Ya Allah, if this is a gift from you for me and my hubby, please don't take it away. Even though I am not sure how to be a mother, I will learn, I promise you, Ya Allah!".

 

And of course, being me, I didn't tell anyone what I feel that moment.

 

Days passes. Mummy is late almost two weeks for menstrual cycle. so, I cant keep it to myself anymore. Mummy then asked your walid to buy pregnancy kit. Your walid looked at mummy for a few seconds before he looked away. I saw hope in your walid's face. But I also see his fear and worries at the same time. He didn't say anything. Yes, your father is a man of few words.

 

That night we plan for a balik kampung trip with your grandma. There is a wedding in Singapore to attend to. Suddenly your walid stop at the nearby pharmacy and he ask me out of the car. And we went to medical section where we find the pregnancy kit. Mummy purposely took the one with two test kit inside. The rest of the journey, we didn't say anything. But my mind is full with questions and possibilities. I am sure your walid is just as same as mummy.  

 

"Have you taken the test yet?" your walid asked me before going to sleep. "Not yet", so I answered.

 

I could not sleep well. I woke up early that morning. I took out the pregnancy kit and bring it to the bathroom. I've heard people said that the first urine in the morning is the most accurate HCG level. With bismillah, I took the test.

 

I couldn't believe my eyes! I checked it, counter checked and triple checked the instruction and information on the box again until I am certain. I woke your walid up from his sleep. I didn't say anything, I just show him the pregnancy kit together with the information box.

 

After a while, "Pregnant?" he asked.

 

I smiled. "yes, you are going to be a father!".

 

I cried. He hugged me.