teething

Assalamualaikum...

I still remembers how your body temperature suddenly rise. You became weak and somber. And through the night when i breastfeed you, you body feel so hot, like an iron burning hot. But i don't care, i just hug you through the night. 

Deep inside, i was so damn worried. i was shattered to pieces. i couldn't even reach the temperature monitor to check on you. i don't want the number fools me. Yeah... kind of stupido. i put wet towels on your head. and i notice, you keep on sweating. 

Sweating is good, right? it shows that your immune system is fighting back.....right?

I couldn't sleep well that night. Every now and then, i wake up to check on your breathing and fed you milk. i feel powerless. 

So, this is how a mother feel when their child is sick. Sad. Yeah... i feel sad, yet i couldn't cry. i need to be strong. A mother SUPPOSED to be strong.

the day after that night, i saw it coming. your gum is swollen and there is a trace of white teeth coming out from it.

i am a happy mother! :)   

AAM

Assalamualaikum

I wonder how were you once you have started your school. I hope that i will not be one Achievement Alpha Momma (AAM) towards you. I will not (I hope) ridicule you regardless how colourful is your exam results. The fact that you have tried your best will make me proud. The fact that you are one independent person, will make me satisfied. The fact that you respect other people and kind to others and never fail to admit when you are wrong, will make me even prouder.

i am not AAM.

i will not be AAM (i hope).

in fact, i become irritated if other person say something or anything towards becoming like AAM to you.

i want you to develop naturally.

force is not good.

especially to babies.

Your first day

Dear my baby love,

You are born in 13th August 2014.

A symbol of love between mummy and walid.

Mummy pray that you will become a Solehah girl, a huffaz,  independent, brave, intelligent, kind hearted, respect the elder.

Mummy promise to support you on whatever you want to do.

Mummy promise not to scold you but to hear on your side of story.

Mummy will be your advisor in anytime you need an advise.

Mummy will fought for your best interest.

Mummy promise to love you unconditionally.